Wednesday, March 29, 2017

L O V E

There is so much more to grief than pain and sadness, so much more! There is a heart​ full of LOVE! Heart pounding, exhilarating huge mountains of love. I'm thinking of her today, she turns 4 on Sunday. The thoughts I have are not sad, yes I miss her, body and soul but at this moment the feelings I have are happiness. I am happy to be the mother of this darling one. She was strong enough to live 40 weeks, 5 days inside me and strong enough to live 33 hours earth side. I am proud to say that this is my daughter, this pure beautiful child. I would give anything to have her alive in my arms but goodness nothing will ever take away this amazing bond we have, this heart to heart passion that a mother and daughter share. My heart is burning with love for my daughter, I don't know a life without my Lucy. Just look at her, ahhh she makes me so happy. 
I absolutely adore her! 


Friday, March 24, 2017

9 Days Til You're 4

Some days I want to go back 
To this
To this happiness.
Lucy is 
A L I V E 
happy and well
We don't know she will die 
She's growing inside of me
I'm radiating with life
Our family is full of
J O Y
Excited to meet our baby
Excited to watch her grow
Hiking
Laughing
But this can't be
Won't be
So today 
I am glad
I am glad with how long we've know her
I'm grateful that her light 
Her light is shining 
Shining ever so bright
And
Even if she isn't breathing
She is breathing in my
H E A R T
Forever