Monday, October 5, 2015

Day 1 Sunrise



SUNRISE

"Just for a moment let's be still"

It's needed, so needed and sometimes I forget to take a moment to take a break from my life. Today I gave myself twenty minutes to sit in silence and breath in the fresh air. It feels real, in this moment I feel alive.

I sit here, I feel still.






CarlyMarie Project Heal - Capture your grief 2015


Friday, April 3, 2015

Lucy's 2nd Birthday


"Two years ago I held the sweetest baby girl in my arms. She cooed and smiled, my love for her runs through my heart deeper and brighter. As I sit and remember her, as I sit and love her deeply and as I miss her, as I long for her so, I smile, I cry, my heart burns with love for her, my lips miss kissing her and my arms ache without her in them. She gives me light and sings within me. She's inspired me with passion and makes me realize what is truly important. Love. Without love we have nothing."


Folly Boat in Charleston, SC we painted in our sweet Lucy's honor: 

Happy 2nd Birthday Lucy -- Boat Painting April 2nd 2015

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

The glow that she left in me is forever ignited - painted by the beautiful Amanda Greavette

I am deeply honored and delighted to share with you this gorgeous piece of art completed by one of the most amazing artists that I know. The talented and most beautiful Amanda Greavette fell in love with Lucy and our story and was moved to paint this amazing photo of the me pregnant with my dear Lucy. 


Sunday, March 1, 2015

Lucy's Birth Story added to anencephaly.info

So happy to be sharing Lucy's story along side some of the most beautiful stories I've read. All our babies only knew heart pounding love. Please read Lucy's birth story on anencephaly.info




This photo was taken while driving away from Lucy's grave. I had to pull off to catch a shot of this beautiful field of flowers. I see Lucy everywhere. 

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Lucy's Blessingway

A blessingway is a beautiful way to celebrate mothers and their babies. To me having this blessingway was so full of memories that I love and I cherish dearly. To me this day was so beautiful, so full of emotion. I fully believe that women coming together to support one another is important and is sometimes forgotten in this day and age. So here I am sharing with you a day full of love.

My sister helped me figure out all the details and we sent out an email invite to all my close close friends and family. I decided that after learning Lucy's diagnosis that I only could handle a small amount of women.

I asked the women who could not attend to send me a meaningful bead for a necklace and for those who could attend to bring one with them. I also asked the ladies to think of a poem or something meaningful to write down and share to help me through labor and birth. We combined all these words to go around a beautiful sunflower photo and I treasure it fully.


Table full of beeswax candles and a circle of flowers to represent Lucy's sweet little life that shines within me. I had enough candles to give to each woman so they could light them as I labored. 

 My beautiful friend Gabby who shared pregnancies with me joined us in celebration of both of our dear children. Flower crowns were made for both pregnant goddesses. 

Putting some of the most thoughtful beautiful beads onto my hemp sting necklace that I wore as I birthed my precious wonder. After each bead was put on, every woman shared something powerful and beautiful with me. These moments of time I hold so dear, it brought about so much love, tears and laughter as we loved on my precious Lucy. 

Me all fancy with my flower crown and birthing necklace.

Feeling sweet Lucy kick and jump for joy, she was so active. 

My momma painting my belly.

 All the beautiful women at Lucy's Blessingway took turns painting meaningful images on my belly. 

 After the women gathered, my son, husband, brother-in-law and father-in-law joined us later for dinner and a few pictures.

My sweet little boy loving on his little sister. 

A close up picture of my flower crown made with love by my dear sister. 

This evening that I shared with some of our close friends and family was amazing and is so treasured. I wanted to share our beautiful day with you all to inspire you to continue to hold one another and lift each other up even when it seems impossible. It has made a huge difference for me and my family. I treasure all of you for making the trip to our home and loving on us and on our dear baby Lucy. 

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Photo today, full of love within me

I found this photo today. Of me, my sweet boy, my darling Lucy. I can see my face and my feelings, I am feeling my children deep within my heart. They are both with me always, I'm so thoroughly blessed to have them in my life. They make my life worth everything, they are love, complete love. 

As I sit here, I cry, I cry with the joy of knowing these amazing souls. Of feeling them so deeply within me. With them next to me during my days, helping to lift me when I fall. Showing me the truths of life, showing me the importance of every second. They've shown me the importance of slowing down, what was I doing, racing towards the end of my life? No, that's now what I want. They've shown me to want to cherish the seconds, grabbing the moments of life as they come. Being present with them, with myself, with life.  

As I look at my son, he is a master, a builder, a creator, a healer, an artist and a lover. He is so passionate about life, about learning and creating. He completely inspires me, empowers me. He is a rare soul. Every time I sit and just observe him at his work, his play he draws me in and I'm so blown away by his creations, his love filled presence, powerful spirit.

As I feel my daughter and look through what she has given me, I get shivers. Everything about her is perfect. Everything I do with her, feels perfect. Every time I feel her, she is perfect, complete. She overwhelms me with her sweet, precious peaceful spirit. 

How did get so lucky? To help create two amazingly beautiful beings, just absolutely radiant both inside and out. 

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Pure Love

My two precious children. The ones that I live for. The ones that keep my life full of love. I'm so grateful and honored to be your mother.

This handsome caring boy of mine, look at the love in his big eyes. I've never seen a boy love his sister so... He is so full of passion and is just completely darling.
Look at those lips of hers, so tender and sweet. Her chunky cheeks of perfection. I miss them. I long for her touch, her smell, her everything.
I cherish these precious children of mine. I love their perfect love for each other.