Welcome to my blog. I am a mother to three beautiful children. My second child, my sweet daughter Lucy was born with Anencephaly; she came to live in the world for only a short time. I'm here writing my thoughts, my feelings, my love, my grief, my passion and life with Lucy in my heart.
There is so much more to grief than pain and sadness, so much more! There is a heart full of LOVE! Heart pounding, exhilarating huge mountains of love. I'm thinking of her today, she turns 4 on Sunday. The thoughts I have are not sad, yes I miss her, body and soul but at this moment the feelings I have are happiness. I am happy to be the mother of this darling one. She was strong enough to live 40 weeks, 5 days inside me and strong enough to live 33 hours earth side. I am proud to say that this is my daughter, this pure beautiful child. I would give anything to have her alive in my arms but goodness nothing will ever take away this amazing bond we have, this heart to heart passion that a mother and daughter share. My heart is burning with love for my daughter, I don't know a life without my Lucy. Just look at her, ahhh she makes me so happy. I absolutely adore her!
Some days I want to go back To this To this happiness. Lucy is A L I V E happy and well We don't know she will die She's growing inside of me I'm radiating with life Our family is full of J O Y Excited to meet our baby Excited to watch her grow Hiking Laughing But this can't be Won't be So today I am glad I am glad with how long we've know her I'm grateful that her light Her light is shining Shining ever so bright And Even if she isn't breathing She is breathing in my H E A R T Forever
I've been thinking today about my daughter, my only daughter, my child who will never grow to be a women.. I grieve that I will never experience this important day with her but yet here she is shining through in her own way, lifting me up and showing me that we WILL share this day together, we are stronger together, me her mama, her my daughter. Missing you my sweet Lucy ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Happy International Women's Day!
“Here’s to strong women. May we know them, may we be them, may we raise them.”
